Redeemed.

"Let them miss you. Sometimes when you’re always available, they take you for granted because they..."

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 17:46:05 -0400

“Let them miss you. Sometimes when you’re always available, they take you for granted because they think you’ll always stay.”

- Anonymous (via youngfolksociety)

Constrained by the Fine Line

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 12:47:35 -0400

I hate the line. The line maks somewhere where you shouldn’t go, constraining the idea, placing a boarder.

I’m going to get a little emotional here. This week was brutal. Not necessarily about work, but emotional. I’m not normally an emotional person. But I think I’m going to go on a social outlet cleanse. I need to get back and find myself. I need to get myself together before I can worry about someone’s emotional meltdown or face temptation.

Please. Just let me be.

Who Do We Trust

Tue, 05 Feb 2013 12:49:45 -0500

“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea.” Psalm 46:1-2.

“The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.” Romans 8:6

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Here’s to the antinormal. Cheers.

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 10:47:44 -0500

Here’s to the antinormal. Cheers.

New Year. New Beginnings. New Shenanigans

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 23:41:44 -0500

They say holidays are all about traditions, well I’m starting off the tradition of ringing in the new year with a bottle of champagne at my desk. working. Keeping it classy. Maybe that’s karma for good things to come work wise this year. Anyways, I really don’t mind and would rather watch the drunks stumble and critique the walk of shames the next day. It’s mildly entertaining.

So cheers to a new year.

I don’t believe in resolutions, they last for 3 weeks max and whose to start we can’t hit restart in July? However I do believe in reflection and see where God has brought us and how he has worked in our lives.

My biggest change was learning that I am not in control. I was so desperate for change that I jumped and I was certain. Instead, God landed me Houston. There have been many nights (or should I say days because days are my nights?!) that i’ve tearfully pleaded with God and asked why. But through this I’ve become strengthened in my faith, got a grip on my fears and no longer have anxiety attacks. God is good.

Life is unpredictable. It’s hard to say exactly where I’ll be at the end of this year, but I know it’ll be good. I’ve realized that I can’t give up what it is important, there is to much I want to accomplish, too much I want to see. I’m afraid of normalcy, of monotony, I’d rather fly under the radar than become a regular. I’m an observer.

Fear and faith both demand to be fulfilled.

A saying I love. You choose weather you give into your fears or you faith.

Lord heres to a fearless 2013.

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"Sit, be still, and listen, because you’re drunk and we’re at the edge of the roof."

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 21:38:18 -0500

“Sit, be still, and listen, because you’re drunk and we’re at the edge of the roof.”

- Rumi, Zen Essentials (via youngfolksociety)

Progressing Into A Reality Check

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 22:00:56 -0500

Call me conservative, old fashioned, or straight edged but I am genuinely concerned for the way our generations mind set has changed.

Progressive.

This isn’t a rant against the movement, it’s me genuinely asking what has happened to our central beliefs and morals? Considering one to be a “free entity but supporting the government to solely control the future of our lives. Against the idea of organized religion but create such a complicated lifestyle structure. God created us to live in harmony with Him, to trust him, rely on His power. Then we created free choice, the idea that WE can do it. All by ourselves…

joke is on us.

I am the first to admit that I believe I have the power to control what I do, which I could. But why? Why when our heavenly father who has a beautiful plan for us has ultimate control. Why stress ourselves, cause unnecessary decisions or heartache when we can give up power and control? It’s a battle we’ve brought upon ourselves and we continue to fight and lose. My heart goes out to those searching or who have convinced themselves that they are greater than the almighty.

Where does this take us? Who are we trusting? How has today’s thought process gone so radically 180 to the point where believers are mocked for trusting in the one belief that will save. Progessive? It’s a far step back.

We can try to change nature, to change the corse of what believed to natural or “societies normalities” but who are you really trying to convince? Yourself. We’ve become afraid to offend, afraid to be honest. Created a complexity of problems that we believe we can solve, honey not enough yoga or inspirational quotes will get you through it.

I’ll admit, by life has become a whirlwind and it’s become complicated. I trust God to make it a little simpler.

condenasttraveler: Instagram Around the World | Rocklands Farm,...

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 23:15:47 -0500

condenasttraveler:

Instagram Around the World | Rocklands Farm, Poolesville, Maryland

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Nice, France (by maluni)

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 23:15:11 -0500

Nice, France (by maluni)

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Modeling various ensembles. Photographed by F.C. Gundlach (b....

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 23:14:37 -0500

Modeling various ensembles. Photographed by F.C. Gundlach (b. 1926), date unknown.

Give Thanks.

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 23:13:57 -0500

Non stop from Vegas to Houston, where home is. Temporary home or full time, it’s my destination. This Thanksgiving brought me back to reality of how thankful I truly need to be. The laughs and tears, memories of family that’s present and whose presence we remember. The stories, laughter and time spent together, I will cherish forever. This past year has been one where I have been challenged and blessed beyond my comprehension. God works in ways that is beyond my realm of thinking and I laugh at the thought that I could keep up. As I eat the left over turkey sandwich on my uncles homemade beauty bread I begin to think back on all that I am thankful for and I know much will be left off this list.

Give thanks for:
- Gods grace.
- my redemption.
- Gods protection over me, His hand with mine.
- My fathers wisdom and my mothers guidance.
-my sister and brothers love and laughter.
- my family’s support
- my grandmothers strength.
- the relationship that has taught me love, selflessness and never ending support and trust.
- my job which God has taught me, doesn’t define me, but teaches me.
- accountability which only can be found in a best friend.
-the friends and acquaintances who I’ve met over the years.

A funny to thing to be thankful for but I can’t forger, my mystery parking angel just to remind me that God is in the details.

Most of all, I’m thankful for the year to come. Let an exciting adventure begin.

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Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:47:39 -0400

The Presence

Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:47:11 -0400

Sit Softly and I know I am with you. I’m always here. I will never fail you.

I believe that Jesus speaks to us through words. Whether we read, think, speak, sing, or process them. God is always present.

I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown. Well i’ve had a few. But I’m fighting this one because I refuse to break. I know myself better than that. This past month has been nothing short of a struggle, but a beautiful one. Work has pushed my limits, both mentally and physically. My anxiety has gone through the roof and it’s something I am learning to control. I sit here “getting ready for work” with an awesome face mask on a cup of coffee at 9:45pm, listening to swing jazz (which I’ve begun to fall in love with) praying for His presence.

I am here.

You seek, but you close your heart.

You believe but question faith, fearing failure.

Listen.

I am here.

I will never guide you wrong. I have brought you here for a purpose.

Be patient.

Listen.

I am here.

"You gave me peace in a lifetime of war."

Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:23:08 -0400

“You gave me peace in a lifetime of war.”

- Achilles, Troy (2004)